Eat-Pray-Love

Last night while in Target, I picked up a book by Elizabeth Gilbert, you got it, EAT PRAY LOVE. While I don't necessarily agree with all of her thoughts on God and spirituality, the book is thought provoking. In the book she is telling a story about a time in her life where she prayed for the first time, literally crying on her bathroom floor at 3am, so desperate for an answer to her the things on her mind. Then she says all of the sudden, she hears a voice, her own voice at that, whisper, "Go back to bed", "just go back to bed". Ironically, it was the simple answer, although definitely not the answer anyone wants to hear while sobbing on the bathroom floor at 3am.

Anyway, this part of the book has been intruding my thoughts all day. So many times we are looking for God to give us an answer or a reason for something, or even for healing of our souls, because life has certainly wounded us, and taken its toll on our hearts. In my life there are times I am looking for some elaborate answer or rule book as to why things happen the way the do and yet feel I feel so offended with the idea that the answer may be "go back to bed", or "just trust me", or "stop worrying" or "get real and just relax, you are going to be fine". How can it be so simple???

So today, at GEICO, in my little cubicle, while wrestling with thoughts like, why do people who really want children have miscarriages, while people who don't want children get pregnant, or why do most of my close friends live in other states because its a tragedy we can't live near each other, or even dumb girly thoughts like, I wonder why stress causes acne....In these moments, in my very own heart, I thought to myself, "just answer your ringing phone, help customers and breathe." In that moment, that is exactly what I needed to do.

Somehow I find it funny that in life sometimes the answer to our prayers or the resolutions to our mind boggling thoughts are very simple and yet we make it so hard...