New Year...

At the end of 2012, the three year mark of our journey of infertility, we kind of hit a wall...I say we lightly, as I was the one who had a full-out breakdown, but we both had pretended too long, held it together too much, and I could feel myself falling a part...in every way, physically, spiritually, emotionally.  I woke up New Years Day and just had this moment where I knew I had to be intentional this year about a couple of things...

1st...our health...We started exercising three times a week, started being more intentional about what we eat, we both needed this, and I have been shocked at the closeness it has brought us to accomplish this together.. life is full of things we can't control, this is one we can...so far, so good.

2nd...our relationships...let me say, that infertility for us has been a lot of things, but one thing we didn't count on was the people who wouldn't stick around or the ones who would back away...the isolation we would feel...people get awkward and uncomfortable with messy issues, like infertility, people don't know what to say, so they say nothing...if there is one thing this season has taught me, it is to always say something...send that card, make that phone call, send that text, give that gift, send those flowers...people need to know they can count on us in good times, but especially in tough seasons....messy or not.  I want to be the tears with mascara all over the face, midnight phone call, bringing-dinner- over  kind of friend.  We have to be intentional about our relationships...

I would like to say thank you to those few, the ones who did send the messages to encourage us or just to let us know you were praying for us...those messages have always been appreciated more than you know.

I'm hopeful for 2013...

Happy New Year!