So for about a year now, it seems like God places people on my heart to pray for, but He does it through dreams. It seems most of the people God does this with are people I was close to at one point in my life, but not close with now. For instance, I have had numerous dreams about a guy I was good friends with when I was at Christ For the Nations, it was a relationship that brought me much heart break, even though looking back now, it was just a good mix of immaturity, miscommunication and crazy feelings it took me a few years to really be able to think of this person and not feel pain. He is now married and I don't really know his wife, but they have been on my heart for about a year now and I have dreams about them all them time, both of them. I have not talked to him in years, not for about five years to be exact, but its a crazy thought that God would use me, someone states away, to lift them up in prayer. I have no idea what they are going through, or what God is up to in their lives, but God must think it's pretty important, that he would wake me up in the middle of the night and taunt my heart during the day, with God-thoughts for them.
I have always wondered how you know if you have really forgiven someone. Like I said before my heart was broken by this person--it was probably one of the greatest heart breaks of my life, and yet, years later, I'm in my car on the way to work, with tear filled-eyes praying for him and his wife, asking God to show up for them. I'd say that's how you know forgiveness has done its work.
I have been a christian for a long time, but every day I realize it really is a journey. Every day, God is teaching me things and every now and then, I look back and realize how far I have come.
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